Friday, December 25, 2009
Monday, November 30, 2009
But even you can't save me from myself
I used to know this boy
Who took notes in a book
But he ripped out all the pages
Before I got a look
At all the words he scribbled
At all the lines he filled
But the ink stains on his fingers
Told me he was skilled
At capturing a feeling
That most of us just miss
The simple pain of living
With goodbyes on our lips
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Monday, November 23, 2009
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
I've been waiting for today
Here comes the sun,
Its been baiting morn' today
Lately I've lost my tongue
Today you found my song
I know not long has grown
I thank God you came along
You are the one
I've been waiting for today
And here comes the sun,
Its been baiting morn' today
You looked right through me,
There was no one else
I sat beside you and became myself today
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Friday, October 23, 2009
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Monday, October 5, 2009
I know I am smart, but not in the ways that count.
I read people much better than books but I never have the words to explain my findings.
I'm only as funny as I feel.
I think horrible things about people and I let my emotions get the best of me.
I'm really not as nice as I'd like to be.
Or as innocent as you'd think I am.
I am a perfectionist.
I am a contradiction to everything I want to stand for.
I'm a big dreamer with little motivation.
I am really no good at all, on my own.
But I am analytical with myself.
And I don't understand how anyone could ever be cocky or proud when they are aware of all the disgusting things that they think and do, but no one knows.
We're all broken enough to be humble."
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Monday, August 17, 2009
Saturday, August 15, 2009
I'm not really unhappy here. I think I'm just scared and excited to see what's in the future. I just have to find my place and adjust. I love living with Justin again. He and Camille have made moving here a lot easier. Them being here makes this place feel like home. I'm comfortable here. Camille, I'm not used to you being so far away when you're at home. I hate not being able to drive 5 minutes down the road to see you. I'm greedy, I want you here.
My parents are coming over tomorrow for an early dinner. I feel like I have to clean every inch of this apartment because god forbid my mother finds any dust or dirt anywhere. I just don't want her to be disappointed in me because "I'm not taking care of Justin properly" and keeping the place clean. They're bringing Rawry. I miss that spoiled imp of a cat. I promised my dad that if I honestly feel she isn't doing well here I'll bring her back. I'll keep that promise though it would be tremendously hard to let her go. That's my baby.
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Friday, July 31, 2009
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Friday, July 24, 2009
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Sunday, July 5, 2009
I felt your heat as you swam near
I held my breath, you held my hand
Moving away, further from land
The moon was full, everything blue
The water stilled, reflecting you
Floating right here with you next to me
Gazing at stars, we drift silently
Late at night, the air was cool
We snuck into the swimming pool
I went under and you followed
Let's not think about tomorrow
She was separated from her husband, with whom she had lived only briefly. On her wedding night her husband had been impotent. Through the course of the night he had repeatedly hurried from his room into hers, attempted intercourse, and failed. The next morning he had poured red ink on the bed so that the maid would believe his bride had been deflowered. However, he hurriedly positioned the spot of ink in such a way that his stratagem was defeated.
Since the separation this woman had lived celibate and alone, her life crippled by obsessive rituals, thinking of her husband with exaggerated respect and admiration. She told Freud there was a stain on the cloth covering the table by which she stood when summoning the maid. She stood in such a way as to be sure the maid would see it.
The woman had unconsciously designed the ritual to save her husband from humiliation by symbolically showing the maid the hymenal spot on the sheet."
The mind is just... baffling. The primary process is apart of the unconscious mind. A person should take the steps to push it into their conscious mind where it may become part of the secondary process. The secondary process describes the familiar world of logic. Events occur in an orderly sequence. What's past is past and what's future has not yet come. It is the world of cause and effect.
The primary process isn't necessarily bad. The realm of primary process contains the raw material for our poetry, our creativity, and our playfulness. A world of pure secondary process most like a sterile world. Freud taught that the artist is one who can explore the realm of the primary process and then make an artistic unity out of what is found there. He might have added that the same applies to the passionate lover and the imaginative companion.
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Friday, June 19, 2009
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Friday, June 5, 2009
when i was tangled all in your words.
How quick to forget who we are.
With eyes unimpressed,
you're sealing the conversations.
And are you wondering how things could be
Just staring at the surface.
When all the walls have tendencies.
But it's not your fault when no one taught you how.
And now the one you once loved is leaving.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Monday, June 1, 2009
1) The Egyptians, Romans, and Greeks are credited with inventing the oldest known type of locks.
2) Here are six types of keys: bit, barrel, flat, corrugated, tubular lock, and cylinder.
3) The corbin key has a bitting cut at 20-degree angles.
4) Locks are named after their uses, appearances, major security features, installation method, internal construction, technology or manufacturer. Examples include the trailer lock, bicycle lock, interlocking dead lock, deadbolt lock, and the rim lock (I laughed at that one... rim. ha.)
5) The Master keying pin tumbler locks means a combination other than the change key will raise the pins to the shear line.
- Since there are three grooves in the master key, five master pins are needed in order for the key to turn.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Monday, May 4, 2009
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
That gay marriage bill better pass in Maine. I want to know if it did! We were supposed to know by 8 but no one is saying anything. If someone wants to get married, let them get married. Who cares? Whatever makes you happy. What's the worst that could happen? Two same sex people get married. Oh no.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
"I have learned to accept my mistakes by referring them to a personal history which was not of my making."
"I do not believe that I am now dreaming, but I cannot prove that I am not."
"Who in the rainbow can draw the line where the violet tint ends and the orange tint begins? Distinctly we see the difference of the colors but where exactly does the one first blendingly enter into the other? So with sanity and insanity?"
"Sleep is like love or happiness. If you pursue it too ardently it will elude you."
"The heart has its reasons which reason does not know."
Monday, April 13, 2009
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Like a tender shoot
With thirsty roots
O' how my garden grows
The shameful seeds I've sown
I watched its stems sprawl above me
Its dark shadow cast its cloud around me
But I can live with it
I'll live in it
There's no place like home
Sticks and stones won't break my bones
It's the branches and boulders I shoulder
I can live with it
Friday, April 10, 2009
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Monday, April 6, 2009
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Yesterday I skipped school for the first time. But it was so that I could do school work which is terribly lame. I got a lot done though... yeah!
Happy April Fools Day, Bitches! I have to think of a good one to pull on my mom. She's always fun to prank on April Fools Day because she's so freaking gullible. I'll probably sit her down and tell her that I'm pregnant and she'll be left with the same expression I have when learning about paranormal stuff, ?. This should be fun.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Sunday, March 29, 2009
My lord, I love this guy. Look at these amazing coffee pictures from start to finish. mmm i didn't see that coming. ha.
Friday, March 27, 2009
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Monday, March 16, 2009
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Friday, March 13, 2009
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Monday, March 9, 2009
Sunday, March 8, 2009
When I start to come down, you lift me back up
And it’s always a surprise, although it really isn’t.
As I approach that dark place I feel you pull me back
Back into the light where I don’t want to be.
Oh how I hate you, Guard Hand.
And when it touches you, it sticks to you like glue
Squeezing tighter as you struggle to make your way back down.
If you could say but one word
I imagine it would be “NO”.
Oh how I hate you, Guard Hand.
Stay persistent, maybe this time you’ll get through!
Maybe it’s not watching!
Damn you, Guard Hand.
You laugh at my expense.
Oh how I do love you.
But god damn you, Guard Hand.
Friday, March 6, 2009
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Friday, February 27, 2009
this was funny too. well at least I thought so:).
They're friggen fierce.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
To dream of a car accident, symbolizes your emotional state. You may be harboring deep anxieties and fears. Are you "driving" yourself too hard? This dream may tell you to slow down before you hit disaster. You need to rethink or re-plan your course of actions and set yourself on a better path.
~I guess what this could mean is that I began taking another class and I feel like it's just too much. I know that I can't take on another load of homework and work in general and I'm afraid that I may not be able to drop the class. So yeah, I'm a bit stressed over it.
To dream that you are riding a bicycle, signifies your desires to attain a balance in your life. You need to balance work and pleasure in order to succeed in your current undertakings. If you have difficulties riding the bicycle, then it suggests that you are experiencing anxieties about making it on your own.
~hmm well this is what I'm always stressing about. Balance. I think I have a pretty good balance right now but I'm going to start working soon and I'm afraid it's going to throw it all off.
To dream that you are a witness to a theft or a victim of theft, indicates that others are wasting your time and stealing energy and ideas. Perhaps you feel robbed in some way.
~ well, a lot of people waste my time. Like my mom. And teachers. I feel robbed of my precious time. haha yeah I don't know.
To see a battery in your dream, symbolizes life energy. If the battery is dead, then it suggests that you are emotionally exhausted or feeling low.
~ hmm well since my batteries were stolen, maybe I feel like someone is draining me and taking my energy away. I'm guessing this is another school and work thing.
To see a dog in your dream, symbolizes intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity. The dream suggests that your strong values and good intentions will enable you to go forward in the world and bring you success. Alternatively, it indicates a skill that you have ignored or forgotten. If the dog is vicious and/or growling, then it signifies some inner conflict within yourself. It may indicate betrayal and untrustworthiness.
~well, some of the dogs were really nice and I took care of them while others were just mean and grrring and shit. Soo... haha it's kind of contradicting it's self. I guess the people closest to me do protect me in a way and I know I can trust them. Although I'm struggling/ having some issues with school and getting a job, I know that I can work through it to be successful. I guess for forgotten skills, art? And as for inner conflict, I always have inner conflict. I loove it. In a way my mom kind of betrayed me and I really don't trust her.
Monday, February 9, 2009
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Monday, February 2, 2009
Monday, January 26, 2009
"fuck, why do i always lose?"
"because, you're always rock."
ha ha. yeah....
okay, I'm so done with winter. i want summer damn it!
I love having the AC on and not worrying about anything as you lay in your nice cool room. I miss going outside with no shoes on! I miss all of the green! winter is poopy. and freezing. and theres nothing to do, especially when you don't do anything wintery such as skiing or snowboarding. alrighty then, I'm done complaining.:).
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Friday, January 2, 2009
And though I ask for help in riddles
It is clearer in my mind
clearer in my mind
But we’re so cool, we’re so cool, we’re so cool
My heart eats beats...
My heart eats love...
Let's study, class, let's study, class, sit down
No, this is how it works
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
And stick it into some
Someone else's heart
Pumping someone else's blood
I bet you can't figure out what I'm listening to, eh?
It's a Regina morning. I seem to get her songs stuck in my head the most. catchy.