Monday, January 26, 2009

it's cold

"rock, paper, scissors, shoot!"
"fuck, why do i always lose?"
"because, you're always rock."

ha ha. yeah....

okay, I'm so done with winter. i want summer damn it!
I love having the AC on and not worrying about anything as you lay in your nice cool room. I miss going outside with no shoes on! I miss all of the green! winter is poopy. and freezing. and theres nothing to do, especially when you don't do anything wintery such as skiing or snowboarding. alrighty then, I'm done complaining.:).

college and other fun stuff.

School is going pretty well surprisingly. I think it's kind of funny how the first homework assignment I got I was all "ahh stress stress stress!". Yeah, I'm over that now. That came from doing nothing for six months. So far, school is extremely easy, it was just a little difficult to really get into the groove of things. I still have no idea what I want to do. I really want to get out of the whole liberal arts major and work towards a real major. Getting an apartment in or near Portland and going to USM next year sounds great right now. That's the plan. Anything to get out of this drama/tension filled house.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

"At the end of the day what we all do in some way, shape, or form is about love. Curiosity is love, it's ignorance's nemesis."

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

The cold heart will burst
If mistrusted first
And a calm heart will break
When given a shake

Friday, January 2, 2009

motivation. procrastination.

I need someone to push me in the right direction. I mean really push me. I hate being afraid of the things that I need to do. I need a job. I need to figure out what I want to do with my life. If everyone has a purpose in life, what the fuck is mine? My parents are sick of my bullshit and so am I. I don't know why I'm not more motivated. Shouldn't being sick of yourself be motivation enough to change. I find that the only time I actually try to make a difference in my life is when I'm angry. Maybe my mom screaming at me is really a good thing. At least then I want to move out and get away from everything. At least then I want to make money and be successful and throw it in her face. Right now my goals for 2009 is to do well in college and get a job(doing anything! jesus). Also I would really really really love to move out. I don't think that will be happening in 2009 though. I'll work on it. okay. I'm done. beep.

I’m so cool, I’m so cool, I’m so cool

and it was coffee and coffee and coffee and coffee and coffee and coffee some more

And though I ask for help in riddles
It is clearer in my mind
clearer in my mind

But we’re so cool, we’re so cool, we’re so cool

My heart eats beats...
My heart eats love...

Let's study, class, let's study, class, sit down

No, this is how it works
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
And stick it into some
Someone else's heart
Pumping someone else's blood

I bet you can't figure out what I'm listening to, eh?
It's a Regina morning. I seem to get her songs stuck in my head the most. catchy.

Thursday, January 1, 2009


I'm hoping 2009 will be amazing. I am very optimistic about it, you see, Camille and I were eating some candy and I got a bag of gummies that was completely filled. None of the other bags were like that... it's a sign. A sign that I will have a good, lucky year. Or maybe it's a sign that I'm going to gain 384740935 pounds and I'm going to have to work at sea world as a whale. hmm...