Tuesday, March 31, 2009


I've been slipping through the years
And my old clothes don't fit like they once did
So they hang like ghosts of the people I've been


mmm spring is coming.

Monday, March 30, 2009

you make me melt

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Artist of the week i think.



My lord, I love this guy. Look at these amazing coffee pictures from start to finish. mmm i didn't see that coming. ha.

rune guneriussen

Friday, March 27, 2009

Of course everyone goes crazy
Over such and such and such
We made ourselves a pillar
We just used it as a crutch
We were certainly uncertain
At least I'm pretty sure I am
And I want to know my fate
If I keep up this way
And it's hard to want to stay awake
When everyone you meet
They all seem to be asleep
And you wonder if you're missing your dream

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

you make me smile.

twin day

Yesterday, Justin and I had a "twin day". It consisted of us going to a Chinese buffet and eating until our stomachs hurt so much, we couldn't sit up for thirty minutes. After we could walk our fat asses out the door and into the car, we went to his apartment and watched House for a couple hours. Then we went to Hannaford. We totally got more food and ate two huge donuts for dinner. All in all it was a pretty good day. I may have grown an extra ass but hey, it's sexy. I woke up around 9 and no one was up. I decided to start my history presentation until Justin got up. Around 12 he was up and left me to go do what he does best. This brings us to right now, I'm waiting for him to come home from picking his roommate up and we're all going to the art museum in Portland. I kind of just want to go home right now. I woke up in a really down mood and I'm not up for people's bullshit. I'm trapped here:(. I like spending time with my brother but I haven't seen him really at all today. I'm so bored and cranky. And my armpit hurts... We better have fun today or I'm beating someone up.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

papa wop

My dad just bitched out my mom and actually left her speechless. Way to go dad for finally standing up for yourself.
26839-20051202070106.jpg funny quote image by PurpleAnimeCat

Saturday, March 21, 2009

my mom is a psychotic bitch.

ihsitbsomc (<- that stands for something that only i know... i just made it up)

As of right now, life is pretty good (knock on wood). I got that job, school is okay, and my stress levels are rather low. Oh and ehh "you're okay". :)<3<3 I'm so exhausted. So goodnight and I love your face, among other things. Wow I've reached the point of dizzying sleepiness. It's rather fun. I've been up forever and I didn't get much sleep last night. I don't know why I'm still typing. Okay.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

"I can't hear you, it's too dark in here!"

Monday, March 16, 2009


I have a job interview with oshkosh b'gosh tomorrow. Friggen sweet... it shouldn't be too bad, the people who work there are nice and I would rather deal with kids than whiny teens. I need to start saving up for the move to Portland. I need to start saving up period. I have $20 to my name... that's really bad. I'm going to be 19, it's about time I start earning some moolah.
I love you.

Sunday, March 15, 2009


It is so nice out right now. I actually woke up to birds chirping. I'm pretending it's summer until I have to step outside.

Friday, March 13, 2009


My moods have been very bipolar lately. One minute I'm completely stressed out over getting a job, school work, school work, more school work, Vanessa moving in, and then the next I'm completely care-free. I want so badly to just give up, to say fuck you to school and to everything that is stressing me out. But I've done that in the past and that in turn just causes more stress. I keep telling myself that there's only two more months of school and that everything is going to be better. However, when I finally am out of school I have to worry about getting an apartment and another job up near Portland. Growing up kind of sucks... I really want to just skip the next five years. Then again, that would be a waste of youth.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Going through the motions
Tell me how come no one gets what they really want
And love only when it's convenient
We act like we know more than we know
We treat love like it's something you owe

Wednesday, March 11, 2009


I feel like I can't rely on much these days... Everything is changing, or at least it's going to.

Monday, March 9, 2009


Every time I write something that I don't want to write, I unconsciously pull off my z key. I'm in the middle of writing my Auschwitz research paper and I can't get my z key back on. This really sucks because I have to go back and put in all the z's that I've missed. Just ehh. There are a lot of z's that you have to use when talking about the holocaust; AuschwitZ, NaZi, stariliZations, you get the point. Tedious.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

ha poem

When I start to come down, you lift me back up
And it’s always a surprise, although it really isn’t.
As I approach that dark place I feel you pull me back
Back into the light where I don’t want to be.
Oh how I hate you, Guard Hand.
And when it touches you, it sticks to you like glue
Squeezing tighter as you struggle to make your way back down.
If you could say but one word
I imagine it would be “NO”.
Oh how I hate you, Guard Hand.
Stay persistent, maybe this time you’ll get through!
Maybe it’s not watching!
Maybe… “NO”.
Damn you, Guard Hand.
Feeling defeated
You laugh at my expense.
Oh how I do love you.
But god damn you, Guard Hand.


>:O My dad let Rawry out of the house and i just spent 2 hours trying to get her in the fucking rain. I crawled under my deck through fucking mud and snow. ahh I'm so pissed! its 5am and i haven't gone to bed yet. what the hell dad. it's all because he wanted a fucking cigarette. I really hate fucking smoking, it's gross. This would be the second time I hit a cat this week.
there's a poem coming soon to this blog. My head is all jumbled so I'm going to write it when I'm at my full potential. watch out.

Friday, March 6, 2009


So I just took a brutally hard history midterm and I'm feeling not so great about it. So to get my spirits back up, I'm drinking a whole pot of coffee, cans upon cans of mountain dew, and I currently have extra fudgey brownies in the oven. That oughta do it. Also, all i have to worry about doing this "spring break" is my two research papers and a project/presentation. I figure I'll set aside a couple of days for that. mmm that's all for now.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

If I'm so sure, why can't I say it aloud? Why is it when a stranger asks me, my heart races and I say nothing? I feel like a hypocrite. I have this huge fear inside of me and I don't know what to do with it. Even now I can't write what I really mean. Fuck. Ah I'm so annoyed, I have no patience with myself.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009


"Some people smoke after, we hit cats... That's normal, right?"

Monday, March 2, 2009

spoon me