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My moods have been very bipolar lately. One minute I'm completely stressed out over getting a job, school work, school work, more school work, Vanessa moving in, and then the next I'm completely care-free. I want so badly to just give up, to say fuck you to school and to everything that is stressing me out. But I've done that in the past and that in turn just causes more stress. I keep telling myself that there's only two more months of school and that everything is going to be better. However, when I finally am out of school I have to worry about getting an apartment and another job up near Portland. Growing up kind of sucks... I really want to just skip the next five years. Then again, that would be a waste of youth.