06

I've been slipping through the years
And my old clothes don't fit like they once did
So they hang like ghosts of the people I've been

spring

mmm spring is coming.

you make me melt

Artist of the week i think.

yep

http://www.runeguneriussen.no/galleri/kaffe/01kaffekopp.html

My lord, I love this guy. Look at these amazing coffee pictures from start to finish. mmm i didn't see that coming. ha.

rune guneriussen

Of course everyone goes crazy
Over such and such and such
We made ourselves a pillar
We just used it as a crutch
We were certainly uncertain
At least I'm pretty sure I am

And I want to know my fate
If I keep up this way
And it's hard to want to stay awake
When everyone you meet
They all seem to be asleep
And you wonder if you're missing your dream

you make me smile.

twin day

Yesterday, Justin and I had a "twin day". It consisted of us going to a Chinese buffet and eating until our stomachs hurt so much, we couldn't sit up for thirty minutes. After we could walk our fat asses out the door and into the car, we went to his apartment and watched House for a couple hours. Then we went to Hannaford. We totally got more food and ate two huge donuts for dinner. All in all it was a pretty good day. I may have grown an extra ass but hey, it's sexy. I woke up around 9 and no one was up. I decided to start my history presentation until Justin got up. Around 12 he was up and left me to go do what he does best. This brings us to right now, I'm waiting for him to come home from picking his roommate up and we're all going to the art museum in Portland. I kind of just want to go home right now. I woke up in a really down mood and I'm not up for people's bullshit. I'm trapped here:(. I like spending time with my brother but I haven't seen him really at all today. I'm so bored and cranky. And my armpit hurts... We better have fun today or I'm beating someone up.

papa wop

My dad just bitched out my mom and actually left her speechless. Way to go dad for finally standing up for yourself.

my mom is a psychotic bitch.

ihsitbsomc (<- that stands for something that only i know... i just made it up)

As of right now, life is pretty good (knock on wood). I got that job, school is okay, and my stress levels are rather low. Oh and ehh "you're okay". :)<3<3 I'm so exhausted. So goodnight and I love your face, among other things. Wow I've reached the point of dizzying sleepiness. It's rather fun. I've been up forever and I didn't get much sleep last night. I don't know why I'm still typing. Okay.

"I can't hear you, it's too dark in here!"

job?

I have a job interview with oshkosh b'gosh tomorrow. Friggen sweet... it shouldn't be too bad, the people who work there are nice and I would rather deal with kids than whiny teens. I need to start saving up for the move to Portland. I need to start saving up period. I have $20 to my name... that's really bad. I'm going to be 19, it's about time I start earning some moolah.

I love you.

:)

It is so nice out right now. I actually woke up to birds chirping. I'm pretending it's summer until I have to step outside.

terry

aahahaha
http://www.comedycentral.com/videos/index.jhtml?videoId=84639&title=pubi-terry

http://www.comedycentral.com/videos/index.jhtml?videoId=168906&title=terry-time

http://www.comedycentral.com/videos/index.jhtml?videoId=172296&title=terrys-new-car

http://www.comedycentral.com/videos/index.jhtml?videoId=72218&title=freedom-tacos

sleep

So last night Justin came home. I fell asleep in his room and he fell asleep in mine? I really don't know why.

Don't know why i found this funny.

blah

My moods have been very bipolar lately. One minute I'm completely stressed out over getting a job, school work, school work, more school work, Vanessa moving in, and then the next I'm completely care-free. I want so badly to just give up, to say fuck you to school and to everything that is stressing me out. But I've done that in the past and that in turn just causes more stress. I keep telling myself that there's only two more months of school and that everything is going to be better. However, when I finally am out of school I have to worry about getting an apartment and another job up near Portland. Growing up kind of sucks... I really want to just skip the next five years. Then again, that would be a waste of youth.

Going through the motions
Tell me how come no one gets what they really want
And love only when it's convenient
We act like we know more than we know
We treat love like it's something you owe

.

I feel like I can't rely on much these days... Everything is changing, or at least it's going to.

z

Every time I write something that I don't want to write, I unconsciously pull off my z key. I'm in the middle of writing my Auschwitz research paper and I can't get my z key back on. This really sucks because I have to go back and put in all the z's that I've missed. Just ehh. There are a lot of z's that you have to use when talking about the holocaust; AuschwitZ, NaZi, stariliZations, you get the point. Tedious.

ha poem

When I start to come down, you lift me back up
And it’s always a surprise, although it really isn’t.
As I approach that dark place I feel you pull me back
Back into the light where I don’t want to be.
Oh how I hate you, Guard Hand.
And when it touches you, it sticks to you like glue
Squeezing tighter as you struggle to make your way back down.
If you could say but one word
I imagine it would be “NO”.
Oh how I hate you, Guard Hand.
Stay persistent, maybe this time you’ll get through!
Maybe it’s not watching!
Maybe… “NO”.
Damn you, Guard Hand.
Feeling defeated
You laugh at my expense.
Oh how I do love you.
But god damn you, Guard Hand.

errf

>:O My dad let Rawry out of the house and i just spent 2 hours trying to get her in the fucking rain. I crawled under my deck through fucking mud and snow. ahh I'm so pissed! its 5am and i haven't gone to bed yet. what the hell dad. it's all because he wanted a fucking cigarette. I really hate fucking smoking, it's gross. This would be the second time I hit a cat this week.

there's a poem coming soon to this blog. My head is all jumbled so I'm going to write it when I'm at my full potential. watch out.

yes

midterm

So I just took a brutally hard history midterm and I'm feeling not so great about it. So to get my spirits back up, I'm drinking a whole pot of coffee, cans upon cans of mountain dew, and I currently have extra fudgey brownies in the oven. That oughta do it. Also, all i have to worry about doing this "spring break" is my two research papers and a project/presentation. I figure I'll set aside a couple of days for that. mmm that's all for now.

If I'm so sure, why can't I say it aloud? Why is it when a stranger asks me, my heart races and I say nothing? I feel like a hypocrite. I have this huge fear inside of me and I don't know what to do with it. Even now I can't write what I really mean. Fuck. Ah I'm so annoyed, I have no patience with myself.

snookums

"Some people smoke after, we hit cats... That's normal, right?"

spoon me